Saturday, February 05, 2005

hie...2dae not in veh good mood lorx...sianz...duno y lahx...juz not good...2dae woke up at lyk 11++...yahs...ten was lyk studying all e way to 7pm...but got rest little wile coz got headache...ten got dinner ten wile restin dad ask me quick go do homework...wth lorx...lyk i do whole day cannot rest for 1 nite...i tml continue cannot arhx??wth...ten iz lyk arnd 8++ go ntuc help parents buy cny goodies...alot of ppl...scary siahx...

sianz...i m so frusrated lorx...wahlaos...i duno y...haihai...juz feel tat life iz sooooo meaningless...i dun noe wad i even live on for...but lyk mr ong said commiting suicide iz not the solution...hees...dun get me wrng..i never tot of commiting suicide...ok mayb once...budden i wun let e ppl out tere tat want me dead to be happi...ahahs....haihai...and i duno if im a great fren or a great junior to the seniors or great seniors to the juniors...haihai...mayb alot of ppl out tere hate me...i cant help it if im fat ugly lyk a freak....wth....haihai...juz let me vent mi anger here....and ten nid to 4get *him*...haihai...i dun tink i can ever do tat though....wth....and church....man...i still dun haf e courage to go...y??i m such a scardey cat...wth...haihai....mayb coz i dun wan ppl and church to c a freak lyk me and PRETEND to be my fren...sian....haihai...fcuk....

[confused & frurated]

what we could have been, 5.2.05.